What personality quirk, flaw or difference has given you the most difficulty in your life? Mine is certainly a hefty helping of self-hatred.

most of the autism stuff, speach, social and executive functioning stuff right at the top.

Yet you make it work, Jamie. Hopefully you also have thoughts (and Lion) to remind you how much you offer others. :)

the cost I impose on other effects those I care about the most. That’s a heavy guilt to carry. I can’t fix it for them.

All that is true - and that "cost" is taken on willingly by others is it not? You've been through so much change recently.

this is why we are working so hard to find care agencies etc to take on some of the burden. It’s the only way to make is work