I often wonder if I should. It seems wrong to lack rage over her death, somehow. Perhaps it’s yet to come; I don’t know.

@meyerweb and if rage ever does come, it's not an issue of right or wrong. Just be ready to manage it. I failed to. You won't.

@mollydotcom I don't think you failed to manage it. You raged, sure, and had a right to but you still sort out a treatment plan.

@pwcc But I am also the digger of my own grave. I didn't cause my disease. I didn't help it either, and I could have. That's my failure.

@mollydotcom @pwcc or that’s just called living.

@sealfur @pwcc Deep damage from child abuse, I pulled myself up. And I let myself fall. And again. And again. Why? I knew. I KNEW. So why?