It does not extend it and staying off those drugs has helped me except for getting off of clonazepam which is exactly the moment when all all of this started who knows why maybe it was masking pain I don't know but I didn't have the bleeding.

My mother had ovarian cancer she miraculously survived because it was encapsulated and they caught it early. Then she survived Non-Hodgkin's lymphoma of the brain. And it was getting better at 84

I have not treated myself as well as she did she was very athletic I have like certain elicit substances since 14 when I was given them by men other than pot which I tried myself. I was not an alcoholic but I was a binge Drinker for 6 years very heavy toward the end and I stopped

In one day I got myself off of opiates prescribed I got myself off of 38 years of prescribed high dose benzos which is very very hard I did it and they all wanted the credit like we were a team and we won know there was no team I self initiated I did the work they were not there.

Most of my pain is from medicine not from anything I did to myself which should have caused I wish it caused my problems because then I can blame something I can hate myself for hurting myself but there is nothing I ever did myself has hurt me more then the US Healthcare System.

I want to finish my book I want to finish this paper I want to talk at conferences I want to see my friends again I want to take a fun I want intimacy and love I don't want to leave yet I'm not done damn it I am not done.

There is a Mayo Clinic in AZ. Mayo prides itself on being the place of last resort. Find someone there who knows Mayo, though. My spouse was auto-prescribed oxy by MAYO JAX.

Could you get out to a support group of some kind? Even if it is at VA? Even if the balance are vets? You may find help or at least some understanding there. I had issues adjusting when my first spouse left. Medicine was not helping. A support group did, though.

We started one back in the '80s and everybody's dead LOL it's not funny but it's funny except me so it's very hard right now because they're very very few people with the illness I have that's complicated one in 20,000 worldwide at best a. Yeah I've just live longer stubborn ;-)

Spouse had a genetic issue (AFAP). I have Fuch’s corneal dystrophy. We were both lucky—both have forms that manifested later in life rather than in teens or 20’s-30’s. His TBI was right after his pre-op appointments for preventative intestinal re-routing (delayed that surgery😕)