38 years on benzos I'm finally at the last taper and she's going to go slow I found a good Clinic with a supportive NP, therapy, peer support. At my worst they had me up to 10 mg a day of lorazepam I didn't realize that was truly sick. Down to 75 mg clonazepam per day. Thank you!

Isn't lorazepam much "milder" than clonazepam? I admitted myself to a psych ward when 12mgs clonazepam couldn't calm me down and I had symptoms like slowness, and slurred speech, and I struggled to walk already.

12 mg clonazepam that's a lot of clonazepam my dear I hope you are better now I know you must have felt like you were fighting your way uphill through split pea soup. The intermediary put me on gabapentin again, hydroxyzine tried to talk me into SSRI I said no and got away

Well, I also developed "tolerance", but as I experienced abuse at that moment, the pleasant effect I had before from it wasn't there anymore, just adverse ones, as if I was heavily drunk.

And I was careful at least to take it over 6 hours, every 30 minutes 1 mg. I guess, I forgot all the details, it was long ago, but it was the thing that put me on the psychiatric wheel/system.

Where are you at now if I may ask are you still taking benzos or other meds that are given for so-called psych reasons. They put me on Seroquel low dose for sleep I didn't understand what it was at that time next thing I know I have a mood disorder LOL very irresponsible

No, I am not. I couldn't take it anymore, I couldn't stand being oppressed and was willing to suffer all the worst withdrawal effects. I feel others things that are a damage are far bigger than one acute withdrawal. I knew I was brave enough and wanted to show myself my

resilience and how nothing bad that they kept on repeating will happen if I don't comply will happen. And it didn't. 😁

The last drug cocktail I was on was in the end of 2020, when I got off first aripiprazole, and shortly after duloxetine.

And was on various drugs for almost a decade, which I spent in severe exec dysfunction already, so I didn't have at least nothing to lose in that sense. I luckily have a mother, who struggles with all obligations, but she's was always with me, so I am privileged in that way.