Am I dissociating and in avoidance or just having fun and breaking from a shtistorm and constant disability awareness of mine? I wish to have someone to just get away with one common mission - to expand in a Jupiterian way. Slowly and playfully, but also being ready for extreme

scary and exciting stuff...

Yah, maybe it's a pinch of hypomania, though it can't be called like that "medically" if it's just a "pinch" of it. I had it already many times, and had different attitudes because when you're bipolar, this means an onset (initial signs) of hypomania.... Woohoo..

Or FFS I learned to call it "hypomania" when it's just that I am overall okay in the moment, or better than how I've been used to.

I don't know you personally but I know a little bit of your history and can't say but only you know where you're at in your process. The description of a pinch of hypomania is odd to me as depending upon the person and condition a pinch of energy, happiness, of improvement?

It's actually just feeling a bit better, being in a better mood. Not even a whole perspective-wise nor in vitality or outlook, but just feeling less in pain from health issues, a little less weight for a few hours is huge for me it seems that I am theorizing like that. lol

And now I'm getting groggy already and am going to relax and go to sleep. :D

And, as I know it's common for me to wake up in cramps and pain, I should enjoy this and be in the moment. It's also less rumination of sorts, like more being able to be in the moment and "unbothered"= lightweight/ligher.