I went to another doctor in hopes I can get off of the last medication and only use medical cannabis as needed. He said I think you should stay gone this but I won't give you any other meds and I said I don't want any other meds I want off of these but no. Old demons emerged
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I got into trauma therapy I did IOP during covid which is intense outpatient for severe trauma no meds except the 1 mg of clonazepam a day which is a low dose I want it off of it but I knew that as you'll see in that video the very end state of getting off of benzos is the worst
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The worst and most possibly deadly withdrawal from any of those drugs especially after long-term use and high dosage. Finally in January this year I fired my physician I was desperate for someone to help me get off the last of those medications I didn't want surgeries or drugs.
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I fired him in January and found a new PCP who's very nice I like him a lot gheenoe what I needed he talked to my oncologist hematologist he did his due diligence and he made it clear I had to go elsewhere for Behavioral Health and psychiatric Med withdrawal. They gave me a list
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No one would help that last stage they thought I wanted more or something I don't know there's a story but I don't want to go into it now. I called them back last week and I called my insurance and I was running out of the meds and you can't stop them abruptly this is not a joke.
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I finally found a therapist this week I saw her Tuesday I begin my final withdrawal from 1 mg of medication any kind got your psychiatric except for medical cannabis as needed. I want to be pharmaceutical free I want to be minimal medical I hate hate the system passionately
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I began to find information like I'm sharing with you today a couple of weeks ago that really nailed it for me and tomorrow I begin the last withdrawal tomorrow morning by taking half the morning dose and the evening dose for 7 days we then review unless I'm having a bad time
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Within the next month I will be free of all prescription drugs and it will only be up to me to pick up that medical cannabis for sleep or appetite stimulation or relaxation if I need or want. Otherwise no more meds of any kind down from 31 to 1 medications 2013.
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That is my horrible tail and it doesn't even include what I went through medically but the psychiatric portion please help me if you see me get upset as I'm already getting but I'm not yet into any withdrawal process I'm just emotional but I want to ask you all the next few weeks
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Might be really hard. Then again they might not I'm under proper Medical Care I'm determined to live life free of any psychiatric drug or medicine and I use the Cannabis very sparingly these days only. It is medical and it is dispensed under medical guidelines.
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If there's anyone going through anything similar I will be your support buddy but I'm going to need you probably maybe I won't I hope I won't I mean I always need you but I might not the better self I've been recently or even really whacked out please understand help if you can?

Jul 14, 2022 · 3:43 AM UTC

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I know I'm not alone the world is filled with this kind of pain and I wanted to stop and I swear I will work hard to bring this to that table for accessibility for Humanity for the memory of my husband and mother for my kitty cat who's growing old and right here beside me now.
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I know I didn't do this I am brave and I am strong I Want to Be Free of addictive substances for once in myI Want to Be Free of addictive substances for once in my blessed life I have a caregiver thanks to an industry leader who has given me so much.
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I live in a safe place I have friends. I have my kitty I have food I have enough money modestly there's nothing I need but time and courage. And I need my community. I need your support and want it. Whatever comes next I will serve and I'll help as best I can for all of my days.
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