I am grateful to all people who have accepted the intensity and extreme nature of my being. I tried to conform. Worked to behave. I have failed at even with professional help for over half a century. Any ideas how I can explain it without feeling such shame and failure?

You’re only human.

Yeah maybe more than one human because I have so many different peoples genetic material inside me at this point to have stimulated my stem cells to keep me alive there might be thousands inside me funny LOL. You always make me laugh. It's that silly dad face stuff you do so well

I don’t know what you mean.