I am grateful to all people who have accepted the intensity and extreme nature of my being. I tried to conform. Worked to behave. I have failed at even with professional help for over half a century. Any ideas how I can explain it without feeling such shame and failure?

You owe no explanations.🤘

I feel as if people want me to give them explanations so I do and then I'm told I'm lying I look too well or I'm so vivacious. I invite them to Rachel swartout at any time to hear a professional point of view. She even has a lovely private room at Arizona Oncology just for that.

I felt this way after I was sick. Some admin treated me like I was faking & yet, I almost died! Then a male colleague was sick w/a similar thing & was encouraged to be out 6 months with pay. I was out 4 weeks and was encouraged to work part-time before my dr. cleared me to do.