Hopefully the talk I just recorded is all good to go because I don’t want to do it again. 🤣

So you're leaving Arizona then

No. I’ll be on Arizona for awhile. I just did a talk and I’m hoping the video/audio/screen recordings all went well enough to not do it again because the deadline is tomorrow.

If I'm able to make it through August when my lease is up here I'm going to leave Arizona or life itself because I cannot do this anymore that hate has made me hateful and I don't know how to be hateful very well. Confused sick yes but hateful. I hated for minutes once in my life

I won’t ever forget that. You’re a big part of how I got to where I am now. I wish it was different and your situation was better than it has been. Hatred used to consume me, and it almost broke me. I hope it doesn’t hurt you like it did me.

FYI it is traumatic to be told I matter when I know I have not truly Been Loved protected or care for by anybody since my husband died

I apologize for anything I have said that would cause harm.