I don't either. I only know how to be me bad good wrong right it doesn't really matter it's just all I know. I also know that I feel no difference between myself and everything in this world and I don't know how not to. I feel responsible. I'm ashamed of failure. How do you cope?
The Hyperreal Kelly Rankin @KellyRankin19
1 Apr 2021
Replying to @mholzschlag
Honestly I think it's a human problem. I've experienced it both online and offline. The thing is online a lot of people benefit from appearing to be friends or to share ideals so that they can push their brand. I don't have it in me to be fake and play those kinds of games.
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It's not easy. I'm not going to pretend that I've won all the battles in life that were important to me. Sometimes you walk away with a pretty bad limp. When I look back I ask myself if I would have done things differently and in many cases I am proud of what I did even if it..
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didn't have the result I had hoped. I still followed my value system and some things I did mattered to some people, but in the end we're all gonna lose and I think it's important to be OK with that. It's a weird duality between fierceness and humility
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Replying to @KellyRankin19
You articulate life's experience in a way that makes true sense to me. It *is* a realist point of view. I think empathy and a self-esteem/identity issue factor in to why I agonize the negative, but it's also seeing people that lost optimism, and that reflects my own experience.

Apr 1, 2021 · 12:00 PM UTC

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Replying to @mholzschlag
I guess one thing I would say is that people will frequently label me a pessimist, but I don't see it that way. I start from what I consider to be the current state of things and imagine the possibilities of what could be. I see that as optimistic to hold on to potential..
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