I have thought a lot about trauma and the dissolution of identity through grief and enormous loss. I have made the decision that no one can understand what it means to lose a mother a husband a career a beloved home and everything I ever dreamed of in the course of one year -
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what that did to a sick dying woman already. If you can't figure that out please do not follow me anymore. I am what I am and I will pick up the pieces as I can or I won't but I will not stand for being denigrated and hated and misunderstood for merely being Human.
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I will speak my mind I will write my mind and whether you consider it crazy or not I do not care this is my right until the end of my life. I helped build this crap that became social media I belong here more than most.
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I am not kidding you do not want me as I am or you want to attack or denigrate my Humanity go away please. Otherwise I welcome you as my friends and I need you more than you will ever know and more than I know how to express. Thank you for reading and hanging in with me always.
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I do push people away I'm terrified to let anyone help me except in the most distant and remote ways and I am ready for change in myself in others and the world. May Life bless us all with Better Days.
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You are right, no one can imagine how horrible that was for you. The best we can do is be here when you need us. No judgment, just unconditional love. Good, bad, ugly, we are here when you need us. If anyone has forgotten how important you are to the web... F'em
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Replying to @DeeSadler
Thank you for your kind and loving insights Dee they mean everything to me in terms of survival and hopefully one day thriving again. I would only argue that love is conditional. I have never seen unconditional love. my husband a truly loving man with me had conditions on others.

Jan 16, 2021 · 3:07 PM UTC
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