I dream of - A way to get nutrition I can't leave my house and no one will deliver with EBT accept Amazon who is doing it to rape people of all their money

Having a family. I have two a cousin and a brother who are my are champions. I can't keep hurting them to see me hurt which is think is love .I am grateful for them and they also live across an entire nation from me and I don't want to unleash my rage on people who love me so .

- Seeing my remaining familly and friends from all over the world that I once made because I know I'll never see them again

To see see my husband and my mother after I pass but I don't believe in God and I don't know what that means but it just seems comforting.

No more assault and trauma and suppression and oppression in our cultures which are Multicultural and multi-ethnic and we need to get the fuck over any isms that prevent that from becoming a beautiful flower of what I envisioned the USA supposed to be.

Progressive democracy restored worldwide over this ridiculousNess we're all insanely nationalistic and it has to stop. It's killing so many people and it's breaking my heart.

That Sandy Hook wasn't and apparently people don't think it was because there are conspiracy theories about it and I don't see many people talking about it as if it ever happened aren't these tragedies covered up or never could possible in a "Peaceful" nation.

That all who once cared for me look up how TBIs, TIAs, chemo and blood meds affect behavior and stop blaming psychology which is a philosophy that does not use the Scienific Method but reverses it. Psychiatry? Mostly a storeforefront for pharmaceuticals.

kindness and understanding and maybe empathy instead of people beating me up for having my own ideas. and wanting thre rightt to my own body. Just sit there and shut the fuck up and be pretty. then I could find anothrr husband to rrake care of all these social vulnerabiltites.