I allowed people to push me around most of my life which is probably why I became such a blunt forceful character by default an especially when angry so sad. And I have a hair trigger temper and a Viper's tongue. Better than not being respected for accomplishments like education.

I used to be a pushover myself. Let people walk all over me. Not anymore. When I see someone that lashes out like I can, I let them burn that off. I know how that feels and can identify. Those people I respect because they feel everything raw and I used to try and cover that up.

I have no trouble with people having tantrums no matter their age as long as the issue is not about an individual person or a specific group but a company organization idea. Exception is individuals who are public figures of any kind that do stupid shit not that that ever happens

When I have a “bad spell” as I put it, i feel horrible afterwards. So I try not to go off on anything Which I usually do re: politics but I’m trying to do so less these days. I have so much going on now I don’t have time to have a tantrum anymore

I'm the same way. I will have a freak out then I will feel angry at myself and ashamed. I know I do not use filters and lack impulse control but the fact of the matter is if I did not speak my mind I'd explode. Avoidance of humanity face-to-face is my control solution lately.

I’d lose my mind too, so I identify with that completely. I’d been getting used to putting myself out there more and trying to not avoid people like I used to but now that I am shut in due to this pandemic, it feels like I am avoiding face-to-face contact again.

I am now doing it purposely for both my physical health as well as my personal safety because I am almost ready to physically assault somebody I have never ever done that in all of my adult life with my brothers as a kid yeah but never have I touched another in violence.

I’ve seen what you have talked about and I am sorry you have gone through all this crap. It hurts to see it sometimes because of the things you gave to me in the form of education from way back. Not a day goes by I don’t remember that. I know you have to do what you have to do.

Don't feel bad for me please. Remember that my processor is installed on my external being. I tell my stories for two reasons one I chose to live an open source style life online and the stop here for my own therapy. Once it's out I'm often very quickly on to a new day.

I don’t feel bad, I wish things had not taken the turn they have. It’s so grossly unjust to me. You are one of the best people I have ever had the pleasure and honor to talk to over the years. I just wish things hadn’t gone the course they had.