I did a reckless thing. I ate a breakfast sandwich today, + later had tuna salad, crackers (both off limits). I miss eating my favorite foods so fiercely, I feel like a fish flapping on a deck, tormented by cravings + hunger. Paying the price now w/pain. #shortbowel #gallbladder

I haven’t shared this, but the cause of my recent setback is due to a “diseased/ dysfunctional gallbladder+ liver”, a consequence of #shortbowel. I can no longer eat fatty foods - a key to my enjoyment of life, + ability to gain/maintain wt. Down 15lbs, lost my reason for being.

I went to my favorite open space after my disappointing dr appt and communed with ‘my’ cows. The best medicine. 🥰 This 1 locked eyes with me for a good 5-10 mins. Watching her chew was meditative, soothing. I adore these cows. Two of them came over and let me touch their noses.