Struggling. Wondering. Did I give up on hope and love? Did we all? Or did hope and love give up on me? On us? How do you keep faith when it seems faith has no meaning? Or is it through meaning that you find faith? I am, we are. So very lost.

Sep 26, 2020 · 1:55 AM UTC

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Replying to @mholzschlag
The only place I know to start with is good faith in humanity, and work my way up from there.
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There are wonderful people in this world. I will work harder to see and rejoice in that. Thank you, Ahmad.
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Replying to @mholzschlag
When I am at the worst of my depression, I start my recovery by taking note of the one distinguishing certainty of the universe: Of everything in it, only this is me. And even if I lose track of what "me" is, I can't deny that it is. From there, I conclude there must be a reason.
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This is not about depression Scott. Depression to me was a disease I had. It made me want to hurt myself and to die. This is not that this is about us... all of us. It is the Reckoning of who we are and what our role plays out as individuals and groups in the human decline.
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Replying to @mholzschlag
Hope/Love is the HumanOS™️ (often very buggy). Faith is a global variable (varies by platform) based on disputed but strongly held beliefs. Meaning is very important software that makes the rest make sense.
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Logic has no bearing in what I am talking about. It is poetic and meaningless and faithless and hopeless in the face of meaning and Faith and Hope it is ultimately the Reckoning of my role and your role in everything that has happened in life and will happen after we are gone.
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Replying to @mholzschlag
I think many have given up on faith. Thankfully many still hang in there, hoping that what they have faith in comes through, whatever that is. It is what keeps them going, keeps them grateful, keeps them helping others, keeps them observant of the good & beauty around them. Hugs
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Replying to @mholzschlag
I think I realized that meaning is relative to time. What does this all mean in terms of the universe? Nothing. Where does meaning come on earth? In my country? In my family? Eventually I realized I have to create meaning for me. Usually in blocks no bigger than a week or day
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Replying to @mholzschlag
You are the epitome of hope and love. Always, no giving up.
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Replying to @mholzschlag
Feel hugged Miss Molly
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