My native language is mostly Cowboy English though because I am a voracious reader it’s more than that. I one time read all 1008 pages of the complete works of Sherlock Holmes in one night.

When I went to grade school they were experimenting with not teaching kids about sentence diagramming. I couldn’t diagram a sentence if my life depended on it. I believe the reason why I write fairly well is because of all the reading that I have done.

I’ve read the classics and actually like Agatha Christie mysteries and Louis l’Amour westerns. My mom left my dad when I was three years old and the people who were friendly to me or car guys and their families. When I was nine years old my mom married my stepfather.

He would sometimes beat me into unconsciousness. He molested my sister and I was molested when I was seven and 10. Not by my stepfather. He was a Chessmaster and probably could’ve been a grandmaster, but didn’t have the persistence to pursue it.

He can’t be chess and I played well, but when he kicked me out of the house at 17 I didn’t have much opportunity to play chess. I’m sorry I haven’t replied to your replies. You seem to be able to reply before I can finish dictating and correcting the next reply.

If I was out of sight and reading I didn’t get in trouble. It took me to wonderful places and because I liked a lot of mysteries made me use my mind. When I entered Bible college in 1976 to become a theologian I stuttered so badly I could barely speak.

Most likely why I didn’t want to become a pastor. Also, all my life I’ve been known for my brain. When I was in a group for depression the leaders had to stand in the room where we thought we would be. Some were in the center of the circle, but I was outside the circle.

It seems as if most of the people were surprised and thought that I should’ve been closer to the center of the room. For one company that I worked at, I would pray every morning that God would give me brilliant ideas and He did. I think it’s called imposter syndrome.

When I first started going to The Church On The Way it took me five weeks to come back to the church because the pastor send strict. After about three months I stop stuttering. It takes a lot of stress to bring back the stutter now.

I don’t remember anybody praying for me to be healed or stuttering. After praying together the pastor would ask us to hug three or four people. Because of the huge love deficit in my life I believe I was hugged out of stuttering.