yea, sometimes i distract myself from my anxiety by doing something fun. then a couple hours later i think of the fun thing i was doing and why i was doing it, and then the anxiety comes back.

and also, you know whats funny is that i actually had an anxiety attack from writing this reply that is a simple task. haha funny ngl. its not depression, but i have had depression back when i was 13 and have made 2 suicide attempts before. sometimes i just wish it could go away

and i blame my parents for this for being so overprotective with me and not letting me see the outside world when i was younger. the only people they let me socialize with is themselves. my mind just sets in this action of, hey, something bad is happening lets make it worse.

i heard that in school anxiety's purpose is to help prepare you for the bad thing that's about to happen. however, that doesn't really make much sense considering it stops me from doing the task handed to me.