yea, sometimes i distract myself from my anxiety by doing something fun. then a couple hours later i think of the fun thing i was doing and why i was doing it, and then the anxiety comes back.

and also, you know whats funny is that i actually had an anxiety attack from writing this reply that is a simple task. haha funny ngl. its not depression, but i have had depression back when i was 13 and have made 2 suicide attempts before. sometimes i just wish it could go away

and i blame my parents for this for being so overprotective with me and not letting me see the outside world when i was younger. the only people they let me socialize with is themselves. my mind just sets in this action of, hey, something bad is happening lets make it worse.