had a dream last night where my mom finally called me june and accepted me. i cried onto her shoulder when she did. then i woke up crying and now i have come to the major realization that i'll probably never be accepted and i'll never be the girl i want to be.
my grandmother thinks that mental health doesn't exist. when she found out that i was going to therapy she said, "(deadname), you don't need that you're too smart".
what.
yesterday i hit 1.8k subs and today i am now at 1.82k. i gained 20 subs in around 24 hours. which is the most subs i gained since i killed off my channel in 2017. i'm moving so fast that the socialblade statistics can't even catch up. i'm extremely thankful for all this.
so i just checked my youtube analytics and it seems that the video i put out like 3 weeks ago (now has 29k views as of this tweet) is probably gonna surpass my most popular video in about a month. (128k views) which is honestly mind blowing.
i used to sing a lot. however, it causes me way too much anxiety now so i find it really hard to sing without breaking down.
i've reached the limit of thread so that's enough questions for now.