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alright so i need to stay consistent with content, but i'm working on the biggest video i've ever made and i need lots of time to actually make it happen. i feel if i pump out another video it'll take longer, plus the video would turn out badly cause my heart wouldn't be in it.
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would kill me. so i'm out of options. i can't control my brain at this point. its all because of this one bad teacher that shouldn't of even been teaching.
if you read this thread, thank you for reading my thoughts. it means a lot.
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things i found fun aren't fun anymore because i can't remember doing the fun things. its really painful. my mom refuses to put me on medication because our insurance doesn't cover the good medication. my mom said if i were to take the other medication, that it
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i barely passed geometry this year. if it wasn't for this virus and the stupid online school system, i would of failed. i can't get my brain under control. worst part is that my a.d.d is slipping into subjects that aren't even education based.
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which made it even harder to pay attention in. so my brain just got more and more hooked on daydreaming because the teacher just couldn't teach. from there, it just slipped into my other subjects and now i'm so far behind that i'm on a 5th grade level of education.
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get myself back on track. i had a really nice math teacher that year and i was going to use him to help understand my work better. when my mom called him for tutoring, he was actually willing to give me tutoring afterschool. so i did. there was a problem tho...
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daydreaming, that it just started doing it in other classes too. it just started giving up. i was doing so bad that i was taken out of the advanced class for english. eventually after i passed the first year of middle school, my next year i was trying to
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slipping. so she contacted my math teacher and asked for tutoring and the math teacher replies with, "we don't do tutoring in middle school". so there was nothing i could do because the teacher refused to help me. eventually my brain got so addicted to
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i hated my brain for this and i hated my teacher. however, the more i hated my brain and tried focusing on my work, the easier it became for my mind to slip away. this originally only took place in math class and my mom noticed that my grades were
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into trouble. you could tell she hated her job. she was never in the spirit to teach. whenever she taught anything she was incredibly hard to follow. my brain just couldn't keep up with her. so my brain eventually started to give up in a way and start daydreaming.
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ultimate confusion. i then got across to my math teacher. now my math teacher was one of the worst teachers that i have actually had in a long time. she shouldn't of been a teacher. she hated all the kids and looked for easy way to make kids get
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of if i didn't do well on my work i would get in trouble for it. my brain was always in learning mode. i could understand pretty much everything super easily that was taught in class. that is until i got to middle school. my first day of middle school was
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relate to spongebob in the way his mentality is, its just not as often as the seasons i grew up with. now i'm not trying to make the show sound bad or hurt the show in any way, i'm just trying to get my thoughts down somewhere. a lot of kids that are my age
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since spongebob was such a major part of my childhood, i think most of anxiety and my strong ability to overthink originates from those seasons. as the series progressed, the kind of writing those seasons had eventually changed. there are some moments where i do
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examples of this are the bathroom key episode where spongebob ditches class and as he goes throughout his day he begins to overthink consistently about how he'll get in trouble if he doesn't return. episodes like that is stuff i grew up with and i just think that
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season 4 and onward. the seasons after the first movie were mainly targeted towards young children instead of a general audience. as i look back on the episodes now that are from the first couple seasons after the first movie i realize that the episodes are
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